Love on the brain...

6:42 PM

Hey love bugs!

Let's talk love today! Yes. I am that woman that wants it all... success in work, love, and life. I would assume most of us want that right?

Well, today I have come to the conclusion that I am failing HORRIBLY at love. And I kinda sorta like it.

Let me explain....

I've always been in a relationship. My first "boyfriend" was for 5 years, and we started dating in kindergarten lol. I met my ex husband in 9th grade and literally spent the next 8 years of my life with him. Our first and only break was our divorce. I then fell for "Firefighter" this past year. We never made it official (not for my lack of trying), but I loved him and so did the munchkins.
But.... we became stuck. I wanted more than he wanted to give. I wanted a relationship and he wanted to be friends. So I cut it off. Ya'll it was THE MOST dramatic breakup for two people who were "not" in a relationship.

The most recent MOI (man of interest) was "Verizon." Now he had potential.

  • fine
  • no kids=no baby mama
  • job
  • wanted a relationship
  • smart
  • a few more accolades 😊
I was excited to see where that would go. I soon realized that it was nowhere lol. So now that you have the backstory, let me tell you about this week and my newfound "peace" with being single.

It had been almost 4 months since I had saw or even talked to Firefighter. He tagged me in something on FB and I decided to respond. Partly because I never fully closed that door. I was secretly still rooting for him. I think I talked to him once after that and we exchanged a few texts. That little part of me that missed him was starting to flutter again. I knew better tho. Him realizing he wanted me and coming back to sweep me off of my feet was a story meant to be a fairytale. Not my reality. It would've been too good to be true. So here's the GAG.

Im on FB, and he shouts out his new girlfriend. My jaw literally hit the floor. 

"Brooooooo, we JUST stopped talking!"
"You said you weren't ready."
"Why make yourself relevant again? You should've just left me alone."

So I'm hurt, pissed, confused, and sad. So the only logical thing to do is BLOCK HIM! And I mean from everything. 

Two days later....

Scrolling down my FB timeline.... what is this? A shout out to "my boo" (in her words).

"Seriously? WTF?"
"Did they just make it official?"
"How long have they been talking? So many people are congratulating them."
"A heads up would've been nice."

Now let me say this, Verizon and I had only been talking. Nothing serious at all, but like I said earlier I saw potential.

But at this point, I'm overly frustrated with the male species. Like damn, am I a magnet for unavailable men? That day I just didn't get it.

But today I do. I think because I'm a hopeless romantic; I feel like something is missing in my life. And it is. However, I realized there is a major difference between being incomplete and unfinished. And I'm just unfinished... when the time is right, my mister will find me. I've decided to be OK with that. So for the time being, I'll enjoy myself. Eat good. Travel. Laugh. Make memories. LIVE LIFE. Build my brand. Focus on enjoying the time I have. 

Everything else will fall into place. Right?

XoXo,
Yannie

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